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I just had some thoughts rolling around in my head for the last few weeks and I wanted to put them down somewhere, and thought here was okay.

Self-esteem is not something you just have.  I feel it's a carefully built and reinforced wall we work at all of our lives, if we choose to.  Some people start with a more sturdy wall, others choose to never improve their own and continue to be treated like dirt while expecting everyone else to fix it for them.
My self-esteem has been trash since I was a kid (thank you bullying class mates) and I've never had the confidence to stand up for myself.  However, at nearly 30, I find myself starting to grow up and feel like an adult and take control. 
Partly, this happened because I didn't have a choice.  I take care of myself.  I'm proud that I can pay my own bills, even though my student loans sometimes seem overwhelming.  I never anticipated my life changing in the way it has would have given me more confidence, but it has. 
I've cleaned out a lot of garbage literally and figuratively.  I've surrounded myself with people who love me for me, who want to see me built up and not brought down.

I am LadySiha and I am beautiful.

These are words that all of my life I've not felt comfortable flat out saying.  While I'd admit I am attractive, I'd never use those words.
To be fair, I owe my beauty to my parents.  Especially to my mom who, as I get older, the rest of my family tells me I look more and more like her.  I also owe it to my sister as well as my mom (once again) who taught me how to make the most of it.  How to use and enjoy make-up.  How to dress myself and make myself feel pretty for myself and not for the benefit of anyone else.  Right now I live thinking this way every day and it makes me feel so good.

I am LadySiha and I will take control of my life.
I don't want anyone else making my decisions, or influencing me in way that are negative.  I don't want people bringing me down and making me feel like garbage, especially when I've grown so much in the last 6 months.  I won't stop being who I am, won't stop cosplaying, and won't stop being an artist.  I will do what makes me happy, and I'm sure that means my future will be the one I hope for.

I am LadySiha and I will be a registered nurse.
Yeah, I figure that's a crazy thought to throw out on here, but it's important.  My previously shattered confidence matters here, too.  Fears of I won't be good enough or I'll slip up and hurt someone have been holding me back.  I refuse to be held back anymore.
I got my BSN 6 years.  The nursing program at the university I went to was the most difficult program that was offered.  While my grades weren't the best (because the grading scale was so difficult) I would have graduated with honors in other programs.  I passed my boards on the first try.  I just renewed my license this February.  By the next time I re-new I will be working in my field. 
  • Listening to: 1930's-1950's Jazz
  • Reading: Romance Novels
  • Playing: Castlevania LOS 2
  • Drinking: Lemon Water

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Meagan
Artist | Hobbyist | Artisan Crafts
United States
Daughter, Sister, Aunt, Cook, Artist, Nerd

~*Favorite Non-Canon Pairings*~
Morrigan x Alistair (Dragon Age)
Isabela x Merrill (Dragon Age)
Harley Quinn x Poison Ivy (DC Universe)
Damon Baird x Samantha Byrne (Gears of War)
Pearl x Rose Quartz (Steven Universe)

~*LIKES*~
My Little Peanut
My Sweet Honeybee
My XBox360
My XBoxOne
Mass Effect
Dragon Age
Thane Krios
Alistair
James Vega
The Iron Bull
Food
Bento
Jewelry-making
Cosplay
Shojo manga
Ms. Marvel/Kamala Khan
Spider-Gwen
Bee & Puppycat
Steven Universe
Japanese Culture
Lolita Fashion
J-Fashion & K-Fasion
Retro Games
My Little Pony (especially Gen 1!)

~*DISLIKES*~
Feeling Grumpy
Buying Jeans
Disorganization
Lack of Productivity
When the WiFi is Down
Raisins
Any Bugs that Skitter (that scene in the first Silent Hill movie...)
Interests

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Fancy-Indigo Featured By Owner Nov 20, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
YOU'VE BEEN HUGGED!! *Hug*

Spread the DA love around! (you can copy and paste this message on their userpage!)

RULES:
1- You can hug the person who hugged you!
2- You -MUST- hug 10 other people, at least!
3- You should hug them in public! Paste it on their page!
4- Random hugs are perfectly okay! (and sweet)
5- You should most definitely get started hugging right away!

Send This To All Your Friends, And Me If I Am 1.
If You Get 7 Back You Are Loved!

1-3 you're bad friend
4-6 you're an ok friend
7-9 you're a good friend
10-& Up you're loved
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KidXister Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2013  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
happy birthday 
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Eaglelives Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2013
Happy birthday Meagan, I hope it's wonderful with joy and affection.
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Badjuju86 Featured By Owner Aug 5, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Ty for the watch+
Juju - xox
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jocker909 Featured By Owner Jun 20, 2013  Student
thanks for the fav :)
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Deviant-Mutha Featured By Owner Jun 17, 2013  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Thanks for the fave :heart:
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Haawan Featured By Owner Jun 10, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the fave!
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NekoPein909 Featured By Owner May 1, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Thanks for the Fav, Be sure to check out the rest of my work in my gallery.
Also like my fan page on facebook [link] and follow me on Twitter [link]
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KidXister Featured By Owner Apr 25, 2013  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Saturday May 4th is free comic book day!!!
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LadySiha Featured By Owner Apr 25, 2013  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Yeah, probably gonna end up scheduled that day XD
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